mi amor, ma cherie, ti amo~

feeling lovey-dovey? it is, after all, valentine's season. however, how im feeling, is very much the opposite. now, someone tell me, seriously, how do you lose a guy in 10 days. or 4 days would be better before that guy asks me to be his valentine. shove him off? easy. problem? i really like him as a friend. IS THERE NO EASY WAY OUT? shit.

getting touch ups for my hair on saturday. what colour should it be next?

america's next top model: i think i liked brandy. so what happened to her? kasian. who's getting kicked next?? *laughs gleefully* wud be so cool if it was tatiana, since the two of them were the ones that had the catfight.

american idol: i think im in love with that guy...watshisnameagain? yeah. paul or something. he sings goooooooooddd. have i mentioned im a sucker for sexyummyvoices? they can serenade me and coo me to bed easily. HAHAHAH jk. i think i'll remember his name when he makes it to the finals. if not? oh well, he wasn't all that great. haha.

notice how 2 shows i watch all begin with "america"? weird.

im not a friends-watcher but i caught one episode where Phoebe screwed her boyfriends proposal three times. the part where people propose by a ball-game's scoreboard? comment: take a case where u dont like the guy. if u were put on a spot of public scrutinity, would u say no (to marriage proposals, dates, whatsoever requests)? no, u'd say yes to save his ass from embarassment and later, when in private, back out. hahaha.


FEL, the ultimate freak.
*runs off before getting hit and made to admit i did the same thing too*
oops! did i just say that? u didnt hear it. er, read it.



update @ 10am
my aunt just called to get me to help out at the L&P edu seminar this afternoon. oh well, sure why not. centrepoint, 1pm-6am. come one, come all!
GET UR ASSES OVER TO ASSIST ME OR HUMOUR ME!

Random-ness

Teo - http://rapportwithlife.blogspot.com/ =) ANOTHER good blog to read.

dammit. I miss so many people.

hey babes, umm..im at the library ryt now. its raining outside and i dno how the hell im going home. nothing much happen today. met mr.vanilla thou but i saw another vanilla. gosh! wat am i talking abt? anewey, who is Mr.Vanilla? ukayy, its this bloke i thot was some eurasian hottie which turns out to be some local guy named MUIZ. he takes SAM. [south-australian matriculation, if u have no idea abt] so yea, when i got to noe him, he wasnt like what i expected. he's like not so friendly kind of guy. ummkayy..i think i shud stop now cos my brain aint functioning well. been so stressed out w/ loaded work!! but i promise i'll blog daily. btw, congrats on the results yea mates? *mwah mwah*


owh u noe what? people turn their heads when i swear! like, its like an uber huge sin im making. how interesting...



luv u guys out there fuckloads.


-xoooooox-

testing..

testing testing....YAYNESS! i miss u babes! <33

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Racists. One thing I undeniably hate.

Its so sickening how certain racists thinks low of you and welcomed you, a newbie, to their school so reluctantly, because SHE noticed you are a CHINESE and jumped to conclusion in her bloody dumb head that I'M definitely from "Chung Hwa". What's wrong with Chung Hwa, anyway? Puhleeze~ Only after she found out I was from St.George's, the vulgar-ness soon started to slowly fade. So yes, registering to `that school was a bad experience.

Although I'm eager to start school, there is an opposition somewhere in me that doesn't want it all to happen. I don't know. Maybe its fear that's holding me back. Im really worried about what's about to come. AS, then A Level. It all sounds so scary and I just feel so petrified. I'm really worried I won't be able to cope. I still don't know if taking up Chemistry is a wise choice.

Before confirming all the subjects I had chosen, I went to the careers section. I was advised to take up Biology instead because im weaker in Chemistry and im not a very big fan of it. In addition to that, my Maths is quite weak too. Maths is also needed to apply in Physics... Argh.. Im just so.... =(

I was feeling really pressured when I was talking to the careers lecturer. I told her that one of the Chemistry lecturers strictly advised me not to take up the subject because I'd be struggling throughout the year. She, however, did not agree with that and tried cheering me up. Fuck man. The eagerness of me wanting to eliminate the vulnerabality in me hasn't been so successful. Im so thankful to have talked to her. I only found out later that she herself is a chemistry teacher! I hope I'll be in her class.

To take up architecture, i'd need Physics, Chemistry and Maths. IF I DO decide to exchange Chemistry with Biology sometime in the first week of school,.. then, I don't know,.. I'll have to find new interests ......... which Might be impossible. Big sigh.

I can go on typing like this for hours, I swear. As usual, I do it silently. I hate it when at home, the subject of the hour or two, is directly relating to me. Heh. Don't know why. OR, how my sisterS acedemic results are bossed around. Im not jealous. It just proves how "DUMB" I am. The black sheep with the weakest intellectual genes, that I am. It hurts a lot sometimes.

Hm, I wonder if anyone's even reading this. Haha =) It's ok. At least I feel better after typing my inner thoughts out. At least im typing them out nearing to proper English which, in addition, doesn't really waste my time because at the same time, I am learning a lot and plus, im letting my brain function a little more since I am STILL on holidays.... brain dead is a no no. hehe. I guess im just used to thinking A LOT. I met an old lady having Alzheimer's in Malaysia. So kesian. =( BE thankful for what you have.