a place of tranquility =Temple.....NOT

exam week now and it super great. i have like 50 handouts about bloody flooring materials....the difference between gypsum boards and particle boards.....thats not all....there are handouts about pipes...pipes in your toilet, under the sink and all the others...its sooo hard :( so much things to remember....argh !!!!!!!!!!!! anyway , this was my last party before exam week
........my friend was spinnin at temple bar and so we all decided to go eventhough we had a 7:00 class the next day hahahha i woke up with a fever and went to skool with a box of tissue....:)

Some Basic Mathematics

(my two-page Mock Exam Checklist)

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(my three-page Final HSC Checklist)

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(My filing cabinet: I need to add to, update and memorize everything that's in here, plus the three or four more files in various school bags)

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(My desk: you can ACTUALLY see the table: went on a mass pre-Mock exam cleanup and organizational phase, I filed (and I counted) over 500 sheets of paper into 7 different subjects)

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you must be ma-d-th

after math they always get giddy
wondering why bother with math
the teacher will have his pen ready
prepare for a bloody aftermath.


i always had this hypothesis about problems. it goes in this sequence:

1. problem arises, for example, you are cutting your friend's hair and accidentally made a gaping hole across the mane.
   
2. frustration, for example, swearing and shouting (victim), profuse apologies (criminal).
3. to find solution, for example, suggest wearing hats, suggest hair growth shampoo, suggest cutting the hair even shorter so the hole is not obvious.
4. fix the problem
5. rethink the whole situation and laugh your asses off about how idiotic it was!

those people who skip number 2, 3 and 4, meaning to say you jump from number 1 to number 5, i salute you! we should be friends! we could even be related! write to me!!!

you see, when the milk is spilt, don't cry over it! what's done is done. just laugh about it!

how i deal with my problems - #1, #5 then maybe #4.

So Have I Told You....

That I've AACTUALLY always wanted to be a checkout chick?

That whole MEDICINE thing was just a cover up! What I REALLY want to do is work at Hua Ho telling you how much your nasi basmati and bananas are, and do that cool nail-flippy thing they do when they're counting notes.

Ohhhhhhhhh god, guys, I don't know what I'm going to do.

It's so hard.

And I don't know if I can take this. In about four months, I'll have finished my exams and probably started a bachelor's degree in....something.

For like, ever, I've wanted that something to be Med. I don't know why, I don't know if it's really what I want to do....I just know that I do.

But it's so hard.....and I'm suddenly not as smart as people told me I was. I'm suddenly finding my beautiful study notes utterly inadequate....I'm scared I haven't started studying early enough, and it makes me want to curl up in a ball and sob.

Long and short of it is, I'm not ready for this.

I'm SO not ready to make a single decision now that affects THE REST of my life.

I'm just not ready.

I wish I was.

But I'm not.

And for now, there's little I can do about it except go off and analyze some crappy related texts for English so I can, yet again, prove to MYSELF and THE WORLD.....

How goddamned inadequate I am.

spurned!

i am beginning to dislike photobucket.

I HAVE BEEN THEIR SUPPORTIVE AND LOYAL USER SINCE THE DAWN OF PHOTO HOSTING!

and what have i been repaid with?

all these years of endless upgrading just to be able to compare with the likes of flickr, imageshack and snapfish but i had never once even had the thought of switching hosts. why? why? never mind the fact that it's the first URL to be displayed when you google for "photo host"!!

felicia, "i dont like photobucket.. the quality of the uploaded photos are just deteriorated."

but no... i tell her i like it because i've been using it all these time and i am used to the way it works, i simply will not bother to learn how to use other photo hosts (what messy way to upload and edit and etc.) but now i think maybe im just too technologically stumped.

anyway, back to what i was said. AND WHAT HAVE I BEEN REPAID WITH??

pages that will NEVER load no matter how many times i refresh it. right after i sign in, there's a waiting page that says "click here (link) if your page does not load within 5 seconds." well, guess how many times i clicked?? no prize for the winner who guessed more than 20.

this has been going on for a while now. don't give me the shit like my internet (brunet, non e-speed) is crap, because even when i was in malaysia using streamyx, it was the same. are you going to say streamyx sucks too? (maybe sometimes lah). but 80% of the time????

here i am, geared with photos i want to share with all of you, ready to upload it into my trusted photo host when the damn page won't even load. i don't even want to use blogger to upload, because i LOVED you, photobucket! I USED TO LOVE YOU. but now i am spurned. I WILL NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER even load your index page again!! the URL http://www.photobucket.com will NEVER NEVER NEVER appear in my browser history again!

it hurts me that i would have to do this so i am giving you a chance. i will not delete all the photos i already have in my album.. yet. i need time to decide. if the next time i try to load you, i get the same annoying result......the rest is history.

*sob*