psst,,.,.

HALO!!

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I dunno what to say bah.

:)

Bye.

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I Could Be.......

The other day, I talked to a friend of mine....we talked about me and exactly what makes me so horrible.

Yeah, no really.

We spent a good forty five minutes in deep, soul-searching conversation, in which we both talked about, quite simply, our flaws. And while I thought I'd scared her a bit (heck, I scared ME), I realized something. That our flaws are merely answers.

They are answers to questions that we can't answer with our OWN personalities. When you can't do something with the person you are, your flaws develop. It's ALL part of the survivalist instinct, the need and raw desire to be able to "deal" with anything. We deal with things by adapting our personalities, and a lot of the time, we don't like these adaptations. We call these flaws, because that's the only way we can excuse them.

But now I think it's high time we embraced these welcome additions to our personalities, instead of making excuses for them.

So, here we go. I can be MANIPULATIVE. I can be CUNNING. I can be PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE. I can MAKE YOU CRY. I can SAY THINGS THAT WILL PIERCE YOUR HEART. I can be SPITEFUL. I can get DEFENSIVE. I can be COLD. I can CREATE STRIFE.

But you know what?

If I didn't have the capacity to manipulate, people WOULD walk over me, I know it, again, because it is a DEVELOPED trait. People USED to walk over me, but then I started fighting for myself and getting what I want. The fact of the matter is, if you HAVE no manipulative ability in you, you can't and don't ever get what you want. I do, and I'm proud to say that when situation calls, I CAN get what I want and manage it on my own.

If I couldn't be cunning, I wouldn't be a planner. People wouldn't ask me what to do in situations, because I'd have no idea. Now, you know what? I do. And I'm proud.

Similarly with everything else!

Now, this doesn't mean I'm a heartless, cold, hideous person. I'm NOT manipulative or cunning or spiteful or angry by nature. But I CAN be. I wouldn't change a single thing about myself, and I'm not ashamed to admit that my character is filled with shades of colour, not all of them bright and pretty. Sometimes, it CAN scare me a little, but as long as I have my own heart beating in my body and not someone ELSE'S, I'm not worried.

Because remember, if you love me enough to be reading this, odds are, I carry a bit of your heart in mine, and THAT'S what makes it unique.

And now that I've screwed a good post with a mushy sentiment, I'm going to go nurse my camel mouth now. (My mouth still hurts. Dentists are evil, evil, evil people.)

there's no end to it!

so here i am again, to tell you all how lazy i am, and i don't think it's a good thing.

i KNOW i don't have much time in my hands and i have lots of school work, lots of unnecessary things i signed up to (heh) to prepare for, ECAs, lots of household chores to take care of, responsibilities yakiittyakyak.

yet, all i ever do is complain about it and never do anything about it. i think this is proving to be a severe and corroding disease spreading among the youngsters. they KNOW what they should be doing, and they DO worry about it but yet, they DON'T improvise any action plan and even if they do, they DON'T implement it. sounds stupid but true.Tony calls it NATO. No Action Talk Only. HAHAHA.

"i am so worried about my studies lah!"
"im so worried of exams you know?"
"im so scared i wont do well ahh!!"

well get the sorry ass up and do something about it! (ahem, im speaking to myself)

i should be up and doing something about my own issues as well. WELL I AM! was. was doing some research online, needed a break and decided that chocolatte needs and update.

it just occured to me that teachers always lie, albeit white lies, all the same, lies.

they say "it's just one more year, you work hard this year and you'll be done!"

LIES!!!

year after bloody year they say the same thing, yet students are still working their arse off every single year. WHEN WILL THIS END?

last saturday i spoke to my career counsellor/ lit teacher. she said i should work hardest for Alevels in this one important year because it's the turning point, it decides what uni i go to and what program i can do based on my results.

i say YEALAH what about when i enter UNI??

are you going to tell me for the next 5 years that those are THE important years which decides what job i get based on my graduating cert?

AND THEN WHAT WHEN I GET A JOB???

my boss will tell me "work hard this year, i see you have a chance for a promotion."

and then you get married, have kids who turn out to be demons, you and your husband tells yourself that things'll smooth over when the kids grow up. but when the kids grow up you worry about their future and blahblahblah the cycle continues, you're doing what your mom had been doing all along.

EVERY SINGLE YEAR UNTIL YOUR DEATH COMES THERE'S NO END TO IT!!!!!!!!!


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then you sit down and think about it.

"it's life!"

you're going for the things you want, or you wouldn't have believed all those lies.

white lies people told you, just to shove you on.

=)

Indian Eyes

So lots of people have asked me over the years how my eyes are so "pretty". Because they're "big" and "large" and "deep" and what not. Well, here, printed for you in BLACK AND WHITE, is exactly how to get your own (and no, Josh, it's NOT with EyeGloss ;) pair of Indian Eyes.

All you need is:

A spoonful of female inequality.

A pinch of poverty.

A dash of total parental control.

A bit of mild sexual harassment.

A little loss of freedom.

A splash of hardship.

A smidge of political instability and corruption.

A drop of sexual repression.


There ya go!!!!!!

Still interested?

Desperado I : Money Mission

here is my resolution #1 for the new year:

MAKE LOTS OF MONEY! HAHAHAHA!

it’s 2007, and I’m in upper six now. next year it’ll be university already. well guess what, i’m not a very rich person and i don’t think I’ll be able to score any scholarship or tuition waiver or whatever. hence, this year, I must devise ways to maximize my income. Wait. I never had any income before. Okay, rephrase.

I MUST GENERATE INCOME
AND MINIMIZE EXPENSE.

I look around my room and it’s full of all sorts of rubbish that I’ll probably never need in my life. And then it occurred to me.

“One man’s trash is
another man’s treasure”

YES! Let’s make money selling off our unused things! I’ll exercise my sales skills. Tell me how well I do. If I’m good, buy from me!

ITEM(S) #1 : UNO CARDS.

ou didn’t read wrong, it’s the UNO cards! You know how when you buy a complete stack, it’s all good and then one day, you lose one or two cards…but it’s still okay because they have a template card ready for you for each color in case you lose one of the cards. Or two. Or three.

BUT, what happens when you lose the WILD and DRAW FOUR cards and the whole stupid stack of more than 100 pieces of cards becomes completely useless??

YOU COME TO ME!

That’s right, I’m selling UNO cards! If you lost one piece, fret not! There’s always Amilyn! I have all the cards you need and I’ll sell you any piece in the stack for

BND0.20 or RM0.50 per piece!

WHAT? you say it’s too expensive, you might as well go buy a brand new stack? Now that’s just stupid if you’ve lost less than 10 pieces! Okay then, I’ll throw in a deal

6 pieces = BND1.00 or RM2.00
10 pieces = BND1.50 or RM3.50
15 pieces = BND2.00 or RM4.50
20 pieces = BND3.00 or RM5.00
25 pieces = GO AND BUY AN NEW STACK LAH!

If you are good friend of mine, half all stated prices. HEHEHEH. What? Give you for free? Crazy, 10cents also money leh. Can buy 2 mentos. Ten of the 10cents can get nasi katok already.


ITEM(S) #2 : MODEL CARS

Once upon a time when in holiday in KL, a friend of mine requested me to help him get some Tamiya model cars, so he can assemble them (all the hard work and effort) and give it to the girl he was so head over heels for. WELL GUESS WHAT. When I got back with the cars he didn’t want them anymore because he was jilted. SO now I am stuck with 2 boxes of replica cars which I have absolutely NO USE for and they had cost me a hefty RM180 to purchase. WHATHELL. Never trust a man in love obsession. Unless you’re the one he’s obsessed with.

Because of that, now I offer you

SKYLINE GT-R (blue) and VW NEW BEETLE (red)


Still new, had not opened it..well a bit lah, just to check it out BUT I did not remove anything at all!! Still got the receipt! See the VW box, the price tag still attached! AHHAHA.

Bought them for RM90 each.
Since it’s been with me for quite a while, subtract some depreciation of RM20.
But I’ve taken good care of them and never kacaued them so add RM15.
You’re buying from me worr so much give you discount RM10.
i got them all the way from KL, kena excess baggage charges RM400++ leh BLOODY HELL! Add RM 15!
Brunei don’t have. Add RM5.
Ok lah, nicer a bit, discount some more RM10.

So nett discount of RM5 only. HAHAHAHA.

Ok no more joking, I’m willing to part with them for RM70 each. That’s BND30. Prices very cheap already kay, and negotiable (you can tell me you saw it somewhere for $15 only, or something like that, I fall for it very easily one) uwahaha.

You should really buy one of these you know, it’s like a hobby or something, and when you finish assembling them, VOILA, all your hard work materializes into a pretty shiny brand new car! You should get it even more if you love GT-Rs and Beetles! =D


ITEM(S) #3 : PHONE PRODUCTS.

You know me, one year lose one phone, so celaka. All im left with are the user manuals, CDs, earpieces, chargers and more. Whatever you want, I think I have, even if you want the phone box (for what?) I can give you for free if you buy something from me. I have

Nokia chargers (HAA everyone also have lah.) but get from me, BND5 k. oklah, BND3. FINE! BND2. TAKE IT!
Motorola charger (I used E365, I don’t know what other model fits it, you google it) BND7 or RM14
Nokia earpiece (old ones, new ones, everything also have. Most of them never been used. Got the cushion thing also, still in plastic) BND1 ahh!!
Other things = Nokia batteries, Nokia USB cable, user manuals, software CDs, AIYAH MANY LAH.


ITEMS(S) #4 : CD-R



Bought a whole lot more than I needed. “Buy CD-Rs for what??” okay. If you want songs, I burn for you. If you want MP3s I burn for you.

At BND2 each it’s cheaper than the average price you pay for your pirated music CDs.
Hmmm. Since I don’t have nice packaging like the pirated CDs, have to reduce by BND1.00
But you can choose any color you want leh, pirated CDs got like that meh?? Add BND0.50.
And I let you choose the songs you want! Not all compilations have exactly all your choices. Add BND0.50.
You can ask your friend to burn for you for free? Okay, discount BND1.00.
Electric bill leh…… Add RM0.50

You want tv shows?? Have to think about it first.

Nett price = BND1.50 per CD with songs of your choice!
Empty CD-R = BND0.80 per piece.

You want to go buy CD-Rs cheaper at Miri or Limbang??
Think about the petrol fees!
Think about the long queues at the immigration control post!
Think about all the annoying salespersons following you around in the shop!
Think how kasian I am.

Don’t have the design you want? ok, tell you what, you let me know what design you want, I’ll get it for you. WAHAHA.

BUY FROM ME.


ITEM(S) #5

Actually you know what, this is taking such a long time, for me to type, for you to read. Why not like this, I can sell anything inside my room if you quote the right price (my room turned into a retail shop! Good for those who always had a thing for my things. Haha.) So if you’re bored one day and wanna shop, you email me, we’ll arrange for a tour. It’s not bigger than most shops but it definitely has a lot of things for you to look over. I can sell my bed also if you want! HAHAHAHA.

So here’s my email once again: amilyn307@gmail.com
I check my email every morning.
*All prices negotiable.
*Delivery provided.
*If you’re coming for a tour, you get snacks and drinks also.
*You can use my house phone to call up your friends for opinion.
*You also can pet my dog. Oh you hate animals? Never mind, we’ll keep it outside my room.

I’m serious okay! You want to buy stuff, you come to me okay? OKAY? I AM not KIDDING!

You can’t buy my underwear, you perv!